COFFEEEEE!!

Who loves coffee?
I used to drink a lot of coffee and energy drinks. It became a kind of addiction.. especially in my first year out of highschool when I worked at KBs... Free coffee and 50% off energy drinks. Relentless (which I think became Mother) was my favourite. Then they brought out those little shot can things which were so good at 7am! But this all changed when I started at Jazz School we had an ENT come to talk to us about vocal health.
She told us that caffiene wasn't good for your voice.. This totally freaked me out so I stopped drinking anything with caffiene in it besides the occasional Earl Grey.

There was this one strange day that I went out for 'coffee' with some friends. I had a cup of tea at about 4:30pm... Half an hour later I had the shakes and felt a bit sick. I didn't think too much of it at the time. Later that night at about 11pm I decided I should probably go to bed. I snuggled up, put my favourite music on, turned off the light and closed my eyes.... There was a problem.... I couldn't keep my eyes shut or turn my body onto 'relax mode', I was wired! After trying to convince myself that I was tired and get to sleep for an hour I got up, ghetto danced in my room for about an hour in hopes of getting rid of the excess energy, got back in bed and tried to sleep... But alas, I was still wide awake! By this time it was about 1.30am. So I got up, spring cleaned my entire room, got rid of 4 rubbish bags full of unwanted clothing & knick-knacks and shifted all my furniture around. Finally I felt slightly tired.. It was 4:30am. TWELVE HOURS after a cup of TEA!!! It was ridiculous how that could affect me SO much! Granted, it was a large cup of tea... But still...

Ever since then whenever I have a drink with any level of caffiene in it without really thinking about what I'm consuming, I find myself wondering why I'm shaky or why I feel sick or why I can't sleep... then it dawns on me: CAFFIENE!

Occasionally even though I do think about the consequences before consuming a caffinated drink, I still do it! -Simply because I like the taste - for that moment of satisfaction. I mean, that's stupid right? Am I the only one who thinks that's silly?
...If you're wondering, I knowingly had a glass of coke at about 10pm tonight... It's 2.14am.... Can't sleep!

This whole caffiene thing is obviously a silly example but it really got me thinking, how often do we as humans do things we KNOW are bad for us because it feels good at the time?
-pigging out?
-drinking too much?
-too much work, too little play?
-too much play, too little work?
-gossipping?
-watching things you know you shouldn't?
-taking advantage of others?
-badmouthing someone?
-bashing someone for their beliefs?
Maybe it's not even doing something wrong, but not doing something right.

There are so many areas that I know are weaknesses for me. But every day I want to get better at making wise decisions.
"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." Romans 7:15.
Couldn't've put it better myself.
I'm thankful that what I do doesn't define who I am... But nonetheless, I want to do things that bring life to other people and also to myself.
Most of all though, I want to bring glory to God.

Hope that di'n't get too heavy for you....

Love and peace always.

Christy